September 1, 2009

Sept 1 – New Beginnings

Well, last month I had 19 days in a row of 100% live raw and exercising every day!

I am going for it again this month to see if I can beat my record and achieve even greater food peace.

Big changes: I have an organic garden now!  My sweet little plants are such a joy to watch grow.  I am a good mama to them (until I eat them!)

Another big change: I started playing tennis again after 25 years … and it is all coming back to me!

I am growing tomatoes, spring mix lettuce, spring onions, cabbage, beets, and a few different herbs.  I also have another big bed that is all ready to plant, so I will be starting the seeds ASAP.

Yaaaaay for new beginnings!

August 13, 2009

Listening

Listening, waiting, allowing ... even when there seems to be no movement, this also can be Divine Guidance and protection from harm.

Listening, waiting, allowing ... even when there seems to be no movement, this also can be Divine Guidance and protection from harm.

Wow. Amazing Grace. Here I am, listening. I’ve lifted my paddle out of the stream. I’m waiting for inspiration. Silence. Nothing. So I wait. The stream is calm. It reflects me and reveals me to myself. These moments of calm, listening, waiting …. can be frustrating as I wait for my Good to show up. And today, I am so grateful that in this listening, waiting mode, where it seems that little is occurring, I am being protected and isolated from a maelstrom around the bend.

Last night I found out that over 400 of my business competitors in my state have been summoned by the attorney general to post a $100,000 bond within ten days or face criminal prosecution: jail time of up to one year and $25,000 fines. This is because of the tremendous fraud in my industry. And because I have been listening for guidance, and being led to go in other directions, my business was not active and so I was not on “the list” of those who were targeted.

So this gives me a great sense of being protected and a sense that all is well. I am sending out my love and gratitude and appreciation to all those forces of light guiding me to “do nothing” in my business even though I beat myself up for my lack of achievement and activity. Now I am ready to redouble my inner seeking and times of meditation so that I tune in with even more clarity and receive a strong KNOWING of the correct path to take …. even if it is to just allow oneself to sit in a place of calmness.

Today is Day 11 of my new life as a 100% live /raw food vegan who exercises daily.  This has been easy and effortless as I have been using Abraham’s 17-second technique to summon big changes.  Now that I know this technique is so powerful, I will be using it in every thing to accomplish all of my dreams.

I look up at the sky daily and see huge sylphs that fill me with tremendous joy, as I know there do not appear everywhere.  I live a blessed life, and I am being shown what is the next step and the next and the next.  I am now aware that my dominant vibration must be allowing.  Anything else keeps my good from manifesting.  This is an art, and  something that keeps getting easier and easier with time and practice.

Food Yesterday

  • Chai spice tea
  • 1 Cantaloupe, blended
  • Savory veggie soup
  • Bee pollen
  • Blueberries

To feed myself as I would feed a visiting goddess is an epiphany, and my body must be so grateful.  To bless each item and send out conscious gratitude, to drink or eat it slowly, mindfully, deliberately … allowing the body to signal when it has had enough … these are little miracles that are occuring in my life.  I am truly grateful.

Today I am making MSM/ginger/lemonade and watermelon juice.  What an amazing opportunity to cleanse and go to the next level of health, fitness and beauty.  I love the mantra:

Every day in every way I am getting better and better and better!

August 12, 2009

Heart

Create art in each moment by being LOVE.

Create art in each moment by being LOVE.

Interesting that this word has hear and art within it.

Living from the heart … could it be as simple as taking the time to hear whatever message the Universe has in answer to our call.  And then having the courage to live our art.

I love to create art.  This aligns me with Source energy completely …. I go into the zone.

The bigger picture is how we do anything is how we do everything.

Therefore, we are constantly creating art.

How do we dress and plate our food before we sit down to eat it?  And how much love and creativity do we put into the flavoring of it?  Do we make sure we are giving ourselves the best of the best, pure organic, and freshly gathered?  This is living art.

And how we live, in what surroundings.  Are we living within art?  Is there art and beauty and pleasing colors all around?  Is it clean and tidy?  Does the feng shui sing out life and balance?

As I think of art as each moment, each movement, each thought …. is it beautiful?  Is it as beautiful as it can be?  … the causes a very warm feeling to flood through me, for I am, at last, one with my art.

Yes, my work is hanging in a gallery right now.  Incredible, and so mystically fun that this happening right now for me.

And I am seeing that as my heart earns for more and more art, that I have the opportunity to have it in each moment, and I no longer need to feel separated from it as something I will do when all the stars align.

Art is life, lived fully, ever expanding … and as I focus my thoughts on better feelings, love, and appreciation, this rains a gentle peace upon me so that I am serene and capable of hearing what is the next step and the next and the next.

Food Today:

  • water, herbs
  • chai spice mate tea
  • 1/2 canteloupe, blended with ice
  • savory summer soup: tomatoes, cuke, carrot, zucchini, spinach, ginger, lemon, flavored with pink salt, bragg’s vinegar, hot sauce, cumin (lots) and stevia
  • herb tea: pau d’arco and chickweed

August 9, 2009

Alignment

ALIGNMENT ... The only way to fly.  Check out Wally the Bird, the old Western Airlines spokes-bird who loved a glass of champagne or a nice smoke while kicked back on a pillow, instead of all the wing-flappin'.  Now THERE'S an example of a guy who knows how to go with the flow!

ALIGNMENT ... The only way to fly. Check out Wally the Bird, the old Western Airlines spokes-bird who loved a glass of champagne or a nice smoke while kicked back on a pillow, instead of all the wing-flappin'. Now THERE'S an example of a guy who knows how to go with the flow!

It seems there is really no other choice but to align.

Here is what I have been shown:

  1. I avoid doing what I don’t want (which causes stress because I SHOULD get it done)
  2. I don’t give myself permission to do what I DO want to do (it seems frivolous or impractical)
  3. I get caught in the middle of these two polarities, wasting time with distractions…. and VIOLA! there is the set-up right there to trigger a numb out with the drug of choice.

So the answer is (drum roll) FIGURE OUT HOW TO MAKE A GOOD LIVING DOING WHAT YOU LOVE AND WHAT YOU ARE NATURALLY ATTRACTED TO DOING so you are not in a state of upstream resistance to being forced or “shoulded” into doing what you don’t want to do.

Gees.

It sure seems simple once you figure it out.

Of, of course this means you will be turning your life upside-down.

And this sounds pretty fun and adventurous …. provided one is hooked up to Source energy and therefore feeling connected and guided.

Believing and Knowing are two very useful skills to have.

They are essential to keep one flowing downstream rather than being tempted to panic and start rowing madly in the opposite direction.

Far from boring, that’s for sure!  Alignment.  The only way to fly!

Food Today:

  • Chai spice mate tea
  • 1 mango
  • spinach/tomato/apple salad with lemon juice dressing
  • another mango
  • sweet summer soup (apple, lemon, spinach, zucchini)
  • bananas
  • ginger/MSM lemonade

August 4, 2009

New Inspiration: “Already done, already done”

This books rocks. Gregg shares how the Universe operates in easy-to-understand terms.   Travel to the future to heal yourself using the ideas in the story below.

This books rocks. Gregg shares how the Universe operates in easy-to-understand terms. Travel to the future to heal yourself using the ideas in the story below.

I got an email promoting a new book on green smoothies and explored the website.

I found this page which is a new “ideal weight” chart that really motivates me.

It is based on the weights of indigenous peoples around the world who eat a natural diet.

Thus they are naturally thin.

According to this chart, my ideal weight is under 117.  That sounds right to me, as I remember weighing in the 120s and feeling I was still able to pinch a big belly roll.

I knew I was small-boned and needed to go beneath “recommended weight” charts to feel really good about my body.

I like the idea that as I fully embrace the raw food path my naturally lean body will emerge.

I have a ways to go … and I KNOW it is “already done, already done” …. it’s a done deal that I will weigh my ideal weight again, as I am aligning with this new vision of my new-and-improved body and feeling a great sense of ease and lightness about it.

Gregg Braden talks about a Health Center in Beijing China that uses non traditional methods of treatment with tremendous success. During a workshop that Gregg attended, the instructor (one of the practitioners at this clinic) showed a film of a woman who was diagnosed with a terminal tumor.

The film was short, lasting less than four minutes. Within that time span, we all saw something that’s considered a miracle by the standards of Western medicine. Yet within the holographic context of the Divine Matrix, it’s something that makes perfect sense. The practitioners had agreed upon a word that would reinforce for them a special quality of feeling inside their bodies. Reminding us of Neville’s instruction to “make your future dream a present fact…by assuming the feeling of your wish fulfilled” the practitioner’s emotion was simply one of the woman already healed. Although they knew that the tumor had existed in the moments leading up to the process, they also acknowledged that its presence was only one possibility out of the many that exist. On that day, they enacted the code that calls for another possibility. And they did so in the language that the Matrix recognizes and responds to-that of human emotion directing energy. Watching the practitioner’s, we heard them repeat the words of a mantra of sorts, which loosely translates into the English words, “already done, already done.” At first it seemed that nothing was happening. Suddenly, the tumor began to quiver in and out of view, as if it were teetering between realities. The room was absolutely silent as we watched the screen in awe. Within seconds, it faded and then completely vanished from the screen…it was gone. Everything else was there, just as it had been seconds before –everything, that is, except the tumor that had threatened the woman’s life.”

Braden, Gregg, The Divine Matrix: Bridging Time, Space, Miracles, and Belief. Hay House, Inc. New York City, USA, 2007, p. 119-120

As we detox, our tissues are able to release extra fluids and mucus caused from eating meats, dairy and grains. The acidic, Standard America Diet (SAD diet) based on animal proteins and grains causes inflammation in the tissues (our bodies actually require an alkaline diet to be truly healthy).  This acidic diet makes us heavier, puffy, stuffed up.  We become full of toxins and our bodies are trying their hardest to keep us going.  So as we detox (through juice feasting and by committing to 100% live / raw vegan foods), we can release the extra fat tissue that was being used by the body to store toxins to protect the vital organs.  Looking at blood under a dark microscope reveals that blood can be very dirty with all kinds of foreign matter in the blood that disappears when one has committed to repeated cleansing of the blood and detoxing, and then lives a pure organic live vegan lifestyle (“go and sin no more” :) ) So even the blood can “lose weight” when it is no longer burdened by the hundreds of foreign particles and intruders caused by a toxic diet.

In the past, I used detoxing to extend my sinful ways (Monday morning atonement).  Now I want to just take it all the way, and achieve the optimum health  and lean body that for many years eluded me, seeming to be out of my league, out of my reach.  [Now I know that was all in my head.  I am so grateful for understanding the Law of Attraction and learning how to align with what I want so everything that was hard becomes easy and effortless.]

I have seen some amazing things in my own body when juice feasting (I’ve done several 4 week series), especially in terms of my skin self-healing. Dark, almost black spots have come to the surface, scabbed over, and dropped off, revealing new pink skin underneath.  I attribute this to the tremendous support from the live food diet and extended cleansing through juice feasting.

I am really motivated to place this commitment to living a 100% live vegan lifestyle as my highest priority and let it lift up every other part of my life. It makes me feel full of hope, full of optimism, and happy to be honoring and loving myself my giving myself the very best.

Today’s Food:

  • coffee (shifting to waking up early … thank goodness it’s a once-in-a-while thing and not a habit)
  • 1 cup of blueberry smoothie
  • a lot of water (2nd day of early morning walking(
  • 2 quarts of ginger-lemonade with MSM and stevia (it’s hot here!)
  • 1 amazing mango

August 2, 2009

Big Clue #2: Stalking the Wild Binge Eater

I'm stalking the one who eats late at night, who overeats when already full, who chooses unhealthy foods, who eats in secret, who eats emotionally.  I'm stalking you and soon you will be gone!

I'm stalking the one who eats late at night, who overeats when already full, who chooses unhealthy foods, who eats in secret, who eats emotionally. I'm stalking you and soon you will be gone!

I’ve been reading my shamanic books again and got the big clue to stalk my inner fat girl.

From The Second Ring of Power by Castaneda, page 227:

“How can one stalk one’s weaknesses?”
“The same way you stalk prey. You figure out your routines until you know all the doing of your weaknesses, and then you come upon them and pick them up like rabbits inside a cage.”

From the website: http://www.toltecmysteryschool.com

When beginning to ’see’, one of the first things you realize is that you are not your personality. You ’see’ the folly in taking yourself (personality) so seriously.

Stalking is a core technique in Toltec warriorship as through stalking we begin to know our habitual personality patterns. We begin by taking a personal inventory of ourselves. We observe our actions, emotions and thoughts. We notice our habits. We inventory our beliefs. This is all part of the Mastery of Awareness.

The next step is to begin to change our beliefs, break our habits, our routine ways of thinking and feeling. Not-doing and the recapitulation are great tools here. All through this we continue to hone our stalking skills. We observe the habitual way we relate to ourselves, to others and to the world. This is all part of the Mastery of Stalking, sometimes called the Mastery of Transformation.

A-HO! So I’m happy to report that this pathetic creature (poor little fat girl) will soon be caught as easily as a rabbit in a cage, for she is being stalked.

Ask yourself when stalking, who is it that is observing my personality? For those of you who have glimpses of ’seeing’, focus on who it is that is ’seeing’.

Who or what is it that is intending? Where does my will come from? Follow your will back to its source as far as you can. By doing this as often as you can you will begin to get the sensation of Self.

Hmmm. Not doing and recapitulation are useful tools.  Will research that. More on that later.

By continually holding the awareness of Self you strengthen your connection with your Dreamer. We are but an aspect of our Dreamer. We are the dreamed. Our world is the dream. The Dreamer holds our essence and purpose. It embodies the intent of our lives. By connecting with your Dreamer you open the doors of intent to flow through you and out into your life. You will begin to ’see’ your life begin to change in alignment with the intent of your Dreamer. You truly embark on your Path of Destiny. You no longer have to manifest your life. It is manifested through you by your Dreamer. This is a scary proposition for those who still have their identity in their personality. Oh no! What if my Dreamer manifests something I don’t like! What about free will! What about what I want! What about me! me me me.

By holding your awareness on the essence of Self you are tuning into a higher frequency and holding it. This loosens your assemblage point. Dreaming becomes more profound. Your personality is much more dense than Self. The denser it is the harder it is to move. We want to raise our habitual platform of frequency. The higher our platform the freer we are. This is why this path is called the Path of Freedom.

Foods Today:

  • 2 quarts of herb tea blended with cacao, stevia, ice and flavoring
  • couple handfuls of raw sunflower seeds and raisins
  • 1 organic apple

July 28, 2009

Light From Within

As I focus on remaining connected to Source energy, I feel lit from within and can therefore generate my own light in the darkness

As I focus on remaining connected to Source energy, I feel lit from within and can therefore generate my own light in the darkness

I love this quote:

“People are like stained glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within.”

–Elisabeth Kðbler-Ross

I stay lit from within by remaining in the state of trust and grace and knowingness that I am being led and guided, inasmuch as I have tuned my ear to hear, and can receive much through this connection … as I am willing to listen and then act on my inspirations.

This “light from within” then transcends the tendency to live in the past and resist change, and instead plants me firmly in the Now moment, giving me strength and focus that transcends any state of limitation or restriction from past thinking patterns or practices.

I follow up on this little inspirations and in so doing gain a forward momentum that makes it easier and easier to believe that I am truly reinventing myself in version 33 of the original software launch called me.  Debugged and shiny and with new features and abilities.  User-friendly, even, which means life is easy, effortless, fun, fluid and flowing.

Food today:

  • water and healing herbs
  • coconut-spinach-cacao-mint-ice-stevia bliss smoothie
  • sweet summer soup (spinach, lemon, apple, zucchini, stevia)
  • 1 perfect cantaloupe (heaven)

I love this affirmation from Unity:

“Every day in every way I am getting better and better and better!”

July 28, 2009

Eating Light

→ One of the goals of this blog is more creative expression and less eating: Today I made this digital art entitled “Eating Light”

I eat light as my main food for my body, my emotions, my mind.  This light fills me up completely so I am content and at peace.

I eat light as my main food for my body, my emotions, my mind. This light fills me up completely so I am content and at peace.

It is very easy to eat lightly during the day.  When it is hot, just drinking quarts of very weak freshly made lemonade and limeade (with stevia for zero calories) seems to keep the body content.

I also have two quarts of herb tea daily that I buy in bulk (Pau D’Arco & Chickweed) which taste fine together and act to clear the body of fungal infestations such as candida and supports the kidneys in purifying the blood.

And I am now focusing my attention on being able to go with this very light program during the evening hours as well, for one day a week.

I certainly have lots for my body to burn, so there is no problem there.  What I am learning to do is to use other things for my food besides food.  That means I need to discover what feeds me to the point of deep contentment that satisfies any sensation of lack or emptiness within.

Creativity, creating order in my environment and self-pampering all work fairly well.

And even deeper than this is the awareness that my link to Source energy must be daily and hourly maintained to avoid any sense of disconnection to the fount of love and well-being that seems to trigger using food to fill an unnamed need.

So this is what I am adding to my program: an inner dialogue that is inclusive to Source by means of on-going gratitude and appreciation for all that I have been given.

July 23, 2009

Well-Being

“When you, as a physician, help someone to accept Well-being enough that they allow the Well-being, whether they allow it in this physical body or whether they have to release this physical body to allow it, it’s still the same thing. In other words, they can allow the wellness into this body, or they can allow the wellness by leaving this body. But allowing the wellness is what you are assisting them in doing. Focus upon the Well-being, and see them opening and receiving it here, or opening and receiving it from Non-Physical. But focus upon the Well-being. And as you focus upon the Well-being, what we’ve noticed is, if you can get someone’s attention and you can convince them that Well-being is the order of the day–there is no illness that will not leave them in the moment that they finally get that.”

— Abraham

I have let go of the oars and am enjoying the calm sense of being guided in this beautiful stream of my own creation

I have let go of the oars and am enjoying the calm sense of being guided in this beautiful stream of my own creation

I finally got it.  Well-being IS the order of the day.  Therefore, I fully expect to make a complete and total recovery from my so-called afflictions and illnesses.  I have let go of the oars and the stream has turned my little boat around and now I am going with the great and mighty flow that I have created from all the years of asking the Universe for a slim and healthy lifestyle.  Silly me.  I was rowing in the opposite direction.  And now I have figured out how to just allow this new sensation of all that I desire is happening now to enfold me in its comforting glow.

July 22, 2009

Proclamation

Fresh raw fruit is a BIG part of my new story ... and my new addiction!

Fresh raw fruit is a BIG part of my new story ... and my new addiction!

So here is my experiment: In this moment, at this time, I am hereby stating that I am NO LONGER a food addict.  This was just a story I was telling about myself that I believed was my fate and my description of my life.  Because I had lots of evidence and supporting facts to back up this story, it became welded to me like iron and each year I added more and more weight to this precious body through acting out this story of food addict / compulsive overeater.  As long as I thought of myself this way, I outpictured it.

Well, I am inspired to start something new.  Here it is.  I am trashing the old story as I have out-grown it and it is positively not doing me a bit of good.  If I want to be VERY generous in my appreciation of how this story may have served me in the past, I suppose I can state that it kept me from killing one or both of my ex-husbands as I was firmly in the good-girls don’t hurt other people mode so kept all my hurting self-directed, as a nice girl should.  So I became a fat nice girl with secret shame of binge eating and not-so-secret thunder thighs.

So it is clear to me that all life is about energy, how you run energy through your mind and emotions, for if it is not running through you, it accumulates as energetic sludge in the physical body, and leads to early death and disease.  So now that I feel I have made some serious strides in understanding how to process energy and keep it positive within my mind and emotions through a supportive inner dialogue and various other methods, I am ready to lose the coping mechanism of the so-called food addict.

So now it is just a matter of creating a new self-description that fits me so well that it is completely comfortable without any sense of limitation or restriction or “should-isms” which set me up for a fall.  So here it is: my new story about myself is that I am now very attracted to a permanent lifestyle of mainly (nearly 100%, with some fudging allowed) live and raw vegan foods such as delicious, ripe fruits of every variety and an array of tasty and wonderfully satisfying greens and veggie dishes and drinks.

Further, I am so energized by and excited by this path that it inspires me to shop for the best ingredients and spend the necessary time to ensure that I always have what I need and I enjoy preparing it fresh.

And that my lifestyle allows me to stay home as a working-from-home mom so it is easy to prepare my meals fresh.

And further, that my body feels so good and so supported that I have plenty of emotional and physical energy to move in enjoyable ways that exercise my body.  In fact, I find that I am absolutely craving exercise and movement because it releases powerful chemicals that circulate throughout my body that give me a lot of pleasure and relaxation.  I begin to do things that I really enjoy, such as swimming, body surfing, bicycling, horseback riding, hiking and many new activities that I attract and open up to experience and enjoy.  I naturally fall in with those people who are likewise enjoying these physical activities and this feels great to me.

In addition, this general feeling of wellness now describes me as slim, toned, loving movement and exercise, and eating almost exclusively a low-fat raw vegan lifestyle which cleans out my body, restores youthful vigor and allows me to look and feel my best—naturally slim.

I am free from any desire to use food to create a deadened feeling in my body because now I am completely embracing of life.

So, in summary: old story: fat, lazy, food addict, secret binge-er, compulsive overeater of harmful foods.

New Story: 100% live and raw vegan foodist, eating until comfortably satisfied, loves to move and exercise, body is slim, toned and attractive.

Food today:

  • healing herbs
  • herb teas: Pau D’arco & chickweed
  • 1 divinely perfect mango
  • sweet summer soup (raw): blended lemon, apple, zucchini, spinach, sweetened with stevia
  • 2 organic bananas
  • organic baby carrots
  • 1 more deliciously perfect mango
  • mocha-coco-cacao shake (wow!)

Found this blurb below on the web … I love the smoking hot part!:

DISCLAIMER:
Use this healthy and easy weight loss diet at your own risk.
Your life might change.
You might actually start looking smoking hot.
You have been warned.